Sun and still in office ... actually was surfing and icq-ing Russ most of the time heheh

 
ok, im here... in office, quite happy actually. I got to shine my brilliant idea at the meeting yday and seems like I got this exciting project in my lap now. I see it as either make or break me though. Wish the stars and sun are with me.

Back to EN, went to see him at his office on Thurs actually. Surprisingly his desk just resemble those of a bach. Still as charming as ever, althru he seems to muffle a bit ( he looks as nervous as me as I strode him... i mean strode up to him heheh). We went into a small meeting room, rock a bit on the sign off form, all the while im breathing in his scent, then he decided to bgt me to starbucks for a drink ( on him! tats wat i like about him!) chat a bit before we parted.

Friday evening, got back from the fab meeting and feeling top of world, got his sms asking me how im doing and when i asked him wussup, he actually said "Just thinking of you!" OK I shouldnt believe that he is a CHEATER ok, anyway we fixed again to meet up on Wed evening, to prob have drinks and I dunno wat else ....

Mind is in a mess just thinkin of wat will happen. Anyway I got to WORK now so ciao blogger.... erm, should i start another blogger on LUST and Emotions? hahahahah

 
again and again i think i never name this blogger Wrongly! Lost emotions.... ran into Wil the other day and he is lunching wid tat same ger ( i think). So ALL IS BLOODY LOST.

but again, the end of a chapter always mark a new beginning. On tat same day, this guy i am working wid on a new proj invited me for some drinks... Day is 16 Oct 02, Wed. I was feeling ever so shitty I have to take his offer. Anyway it turns out to the the biggest , nope not mistake, but rather the hottest fling i have!

en is actually married, as what he told me, but its either I been sending out the wrong signals or he is always on the prowl. BUT I LOVE THE WAY HE DO THINGS. Actually I dun care anymore... call me materialistic or practical, i aint care!

Went to embargo and we embark on some serious JD-coke drinking ... and I tot i wun be touching tat toxic for at least 3 months after all those I had during the chalet =P, it was like 11 when we decided to go ( and the bill is tapping ard $200 odds, OMG), got into his cars, he starts to put his hand on my thigh... being as horny as i am always... well I din stop him of coz.

Ok, to be clearer, when i first heard him over the phone and subsequently met him during a meeting, I was totally awe by him... U know, all those characteristics i wan in a man .... confident, articulate, socialite, rich, drive .....Man i just wished he was still single.

Back to wat happened in the car though... I start to look at him ( AKA seduce him heheh, ok i had some drinks...), he asked me if he is driving me horny ... response = YES. tats about it. He make a turn into a a Newton Carpark ( where u get transport to Mersing) and tats how the hot fling started.

He leaned over and told me that hes married, and all these just for fun.. blah blah, could have told him to shut up and F me... i just take off my safety belt, lean over and kiss him,,,, woow, its was one of the best i had... tongues flickers and hands roaming...

What makes the difference ? Man he never will understand why he will be remembered by me in a special way, even if we are not gg to have a rendevous again. He got my first blow job assignement!! LUCKY Fellow! hahahahah

I hope I did well though, all those gentle sucking and licking seems to be driving him crazy.. mabbe he din expected THIS MUCH huh =P or mabbe more ?

Anyway it went on a while, some amazing foreplay while clothed..... before we call it a nite.

Since im back to earth , I been thinking if I would ever go out wid him for drinks again.. ITs just oblivious that he wants to screw me at the end of the day... Man i hate to disappoint him, but being the morally correct person I claimed myself to be same day as Russ bought up some matters, and that still being a virgin, its not impossible not to be in a dilemma , rite?

I would have screw him if I am a V anymore. But do i care anyway? I've yet to find the answer.
Mabbe I have to leave to the situation. Some times when some things has to happen, it has to happen.