2 updates in a month...tats a bit too much ? or not? heheh.

Its been a bad week since the last blog entry. A suspicious, unidentified swelling occurs on my left foot for no apparent reason, and it hurts like hell! Have actually to stayed home for 4 days ( inclusive of the Sunday) before I can return to work. Went through a couple of check ups, the reasons should be out by next week. I pray hard its not gout and that I have to sustained from alcohol!! I shall die without that toxic, ya!!

I hv to entry a blog today man, im still trembling from the decision I have made. Its crazy yet its been on my mind for sooooo long and now, i have decided to do it, once and for all:

En sms-ed me around 7:30 am a Good Morning but I couldnt care less to reply ( well was gg to shower n gg to work). Unexpectedly, he sms-ed me again around 10am asking if y im so quiet and if Im ok. Well, just casually told him I slept late blah blah stuffs, and told him I got another drinkin session tonite, and guess what ? he wanted to come along ?!?! OH coz cannot lar, given our illicit affair, how am I gg to explain to my frens who is he ?

Refused him nicely though. He replied he just wan to go out party, and my ankle seems bad so he din want to bother me last week; then he said " Let's hang out next week. maybe take an afternoon off!"

Well, true enough, i was scheming a way for him to ask me out next week anyway. So , this is god-sent. Ok, im sorrie, thats not really an appropriate word though.
Anyway, said yes! and so its fixed, to keep "Next Tuesday afternoon free".

OMG, I really dunno what will happen. In fact, as I am writing and thinking about this, my hands are feeling so cold! I hope he will not be building any expectatations and etc , as I dun want to fail him again though. So we shall see wat happened next week...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! Ok, its a bit late though, but then had a fab nite with my charmed sisters yday , at Fish & Co, and then to ChinaBlack for drinks! Free Entry and 6 free drinks !! and the drinks the bar chicks made are so POTENT! I was beaming with bliss ! heheh anyway, it was rather enjoyable, and the three of us have a jolly good time, :D

Oh well, im lookin fwd ( ok, shouldnt build expectations either) to celebrating Eug Bday this Sat with the gang. okie bloogie, I know it havent been fair to u .. "Argh, What another new guy ??!!" Expecting some sizzling actions though from the bday boy, or if Rog is gg...hmmh, still remember the bday hug he gave :P~ ... ok ok, no building of expectations huh.

Meanwhile have a Prosperous Chinese New Yr to all reading this !!

Adios.

 
Hi I'm back, hungry for more updates on my hook ups ? awww, im sorrie to disappointed u though. It was a mix of disappointment yet with a sigh of relieve for me. It is a strange kind of feeling, hard to explain.

Managed to sms a bit, and with a bit of word twisting, he was asking me if i wan to come out for a drink. but soon, he was asking if I just want a drink , or ... ! Wat are u thinking, u fools out there, of coz he wanted SEX! I hestiated, partly due to my worsening enzema condition, and my experience of having sex ( i cant say im a virgin anymore, can i ? or cannot i ?? im confused once again).

It did not work out in the end. I sorta call of the whole thing ( what can I do ?). Its so tough having to be put down quietly when your hormones are all charged up. But then, it would have been an adultery affair if I have agreed, or mabbe an adultry on a more serious level heheh.

Dun think he will ever hook me up again. Its hard being rejected 4 times, rite!

Anyway, I seek the comfort of my girlfriend, who was too self-absorbed shopping, and probably a good thing after all, so that I can lessen the ordeal though.

Need a drink, and need it badly.