It is a strange feeling , as if u have everything, but when u look more carefully, examine a while longer, u realised, there is actually nuthin in yr hands....
This is the feeling I am having right now. Everything just seems to be a dream... suddenly they are here, and u can feel their breath on yr skin... in another moment, they are just gone, and leaves u wondering, if everything was just your imagination.
Finally purchase the Fujifilm A101 ! Whammmm im so happy! its kinda a cool camera, simple, functionable n good looking , ok a bit out-dated lookin but its still good! paid $306 for it. onli took one photo so far which is the doll which resemble Milo... but i tot if I send to him will he mis-understanding? I feel tat he is fallin to me. Im scare at the same time.. the feeling of losing after having it, like wid Van n Fhm. sigh cant i jus be braver?
Anyway, nuthin excitin happen over the weekends, oh well ,except Milo went on icq (from HK) to say Hello =) boy i know he will do tat but im juz soo glad to see him online!
Still thinkin of fhm, esp lately. dunno wats wrong wid me. of coz, time will erode the feelins n prob the pain each time I tot about him. wonder wat he is doing , how he is now. sigh.
takin a nap... so sleep. tok later.
Been three unproductive days... well i tried my best at work but nuthin interest me at all. Im soo sick of all these email chasing stuffs, its killing me.
Tok again to Milo Again, actually i tok everyday! last Fri, after work, practically tok from 6 plus to near 10 pm! He juz never stop having fun poking at each other, and sharing each other life etc etc. Btw, told him im still a V. Glad I did n it havent change a single thing! On Sunday, we chatted alot again ( another 4 hrs till my back is aching like hell) and tok about religion stuffs. ITs real cool to share such things with him (althru he is not into this religion) and know I wun be judged by wat i say!
This mornin , he popped in to say Hello etc. Said he kinda discover a mean of teaching English in Asia Region ( HK, Jap, etc). Seems like he is serious n considering... And further, he asked me to join him! oh my. I really dun wan to turn him down u know. Who knows, he might juz be 'The One' ? ( were toking about how I will know if The One Appears).
But I never did tot about gg to HK .... another cosmopolitan town like Singapore huh. Anyway, Milo is leaving for HK on 7 Jun for a 10 days holiday! gonna missed him but he promised he will try to log in to reach the 'hug' quota LoL. Tats so Cute n Nice huH!
Oh yeah, bits of updatin'. Was at a vic's fren Bday party last Friday..... guess wat, Van is there, wid his new ger =(
Bloody SOB, din even bothered to return me e $50 he own me ( tats all i care now! hahah)
No words/ news fr fhm...... guess its a gone case...... =( . I miss him sometimes frankly. Actually almost everyday (when im not thinkin of other guys heheh). Miss his passionate kiss n touch.
Wil, this workaholic. Nope we din managed to had a second date . Think he is juz toooo busy. still managed to sms a bit, and hook up on phone for barely mins last nite...
btw, know a new guy from icq.... name is ..... Bran (name has been changed to protect the innocent). Hooked up on fone wid him last nite and we chatted for a while. Quite nice feelin bout it =). But Alas he is 2 yrs Younger ok so forget it!
Anyway, tats about all i wan to say. and yeah, sadly, my menses returned after onli a 20-days cycle. looks like something is real wrong wid me. And YEAH (THRILL NOW!) signed up for the Basic Adventure Training Course (B.A.T.C)... it will start in mid Aug for 6 weeks! lookin fwd to a tougher me!
Smile, the world will still evolve despite the sorrow in my heart.
